What You Think This Is, A Game? This Ain't No Game!

I knew research would be intense, but I didn’t know it would be this intense. Age, personal experience, language (even if rusty at best)- these all allow me to delve deep into my interviewee’s lives, allowing them to communicate with their mouths and not just their skin. But the more I get to know, the more their families opens up, the more personal it gets, the more I feel sucked in, involuntarily at times, and find it hard to distance myself. It presents me with hurdles I have worked hard to overcome, places I don’t necessarily want to revisit. Doctors are often told not too get involved in their patients’ personal lives. I didn’t see myself as the Izzy Stevens type, but it’s a fine line. As if the physical exhaustion of trekking out in the scorching heat or thundering rain, and dealing with cultural differences and abrasive auto drivers weren’t enough, the research I do is emotionally taxing.

show, tell

stop, stare

spotting, spreading

lapsing, relapsing

show, tell

stop, stare

no knowing, no hiding

no biding, no confiding

don't want to show, tell

why do they stop, stare

no more trying, stop hiding

white. out.